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MUET.............!

Is it one of the important passports to enter Uni?

No1 can gv me the answer accurately.

Recall back the month of nov in 2007, i sacrificed few days of holidays to stay at college to take the muet speaking test. N so, i missed few days to relax n learn driving.

I aimed for 3 but wish to get 4.

Now, jan of 2008, result has released.

I'm wondering whether wan to check the result by sms or wait until i go bak to college.

Wondering for few hours.

But, finally, i decided to check it by now, persuaded by frens.

The time to press 'send' to 39003 took few minutes, n i felt nervous within the time i was waiting for the reply.

Few minutes later, i get the reply. Band achieved : 3. I was stuck at the moment. No feeling, sad? happy? satisfy? I really duno. Did i reach my target? I really duno!

As usual, once i get my result, others will ask. So, at 1st i hope to keep it as a secret cox of my feeling.

but at last, just bocor bah~ I tell the truth whoever ask for it!!

Band? 3!

Band? 3!

Band? 3!

The same answer is given to the same question!

N the most importantly, the same reactions from frens i get.

-Dun cheat lar..!

-Gv me ur ic number, i help to check!

-Really?

-Ok

-Band 4 den band 4 lar... Dun bluff!

-Har..?

BLOODY....!!

I'm not cheating at all! Tat's my real number i get!!!! 3 is 3!

Nite, once i on9 again to chat.

I get to know my frens' result too. Most of them are from 5A'06.

Hmm.. overall, frens from 5A'06 get band 4 n even 5!

N i'm the one who get 3!

So......?!

Get my feeling now..?

Tears nearly come out, facing the truth myself, in front of my lovely pc.

LONELY.

Maybe i'm a kind of KIASU. I study hardly to win others, not for myself.

Actually, not! I'm only suspecting my eng level, compare to my frens. 2 years of classmates that we had been.

Sorry, Bro B. My eng is not as well as u expected. U owe me, rmb to tell me ur result too..!! :P

I really hv to work hard in future, especially in eng!

SPM eng n 1119 do not meant anything!

FAITH~

p/s : I'm not proud of myself. Just wish to share my feeling here.